and wasnt feeling exceptionally good so.

yeah made up a poem.

sigh today's race sucked.

big time i screwed up so badly.

i might as well have not sailed.

it was so fucking bad.

and no matter what i did people kept overtaking me.

damn fucking pissed.

i really wasnt in a mood to joke but i had to show a nice face.

couldnt take it;

blew up in the end.

i cant believe i did so fucking badly.

im so screwed lah.

i really am starting to wonder whether bryan was right when he told me to quit sailing last yr and just focus on debates.

it annoys the hell out of me that i forsake so much just to pursue sailing and still do so fucking badly in it.

and bryan was right the debate circuit is a lot better a place to get somewhere.

i had to be smart and try to be a barter of both trades/

and now im crap at both.

ugh and best part about it is that i sacrifice my academics for my CCAs.

seriously go me.

im completely disillusional.

to a certain extent i cant wait to get out of here.

get away from the mess i'm in.

get a fucking proper CCA which i enjoy and doesnt happen to stress me out.

preferbly get somewhere in my academics instead of perpetually sucking at every damn subject even what used to be my pet subject which i ended up with a freaking B3.

dammit.

this sucks.

i have two more days of races.

and im over with sailing for this yr.

honestly.

i cant wait .

i really cant;

i just want to have a chance to properly start staring at my textbook and actually know what the hell is going on in there/

i want to for the first time in my life finish my hol homework.

and for gods sake i want time to sleep properly.

and not get anxiety attacks every night before competition hence not sleeping.

F is for fool.

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