Saturday, February 11, 2006
"laudate laudate dominum, omnis gentes, laudate dominum"
"exultate jubilate, peranos ominis(sp?) omnis gentes!"
everythings going wrong.
im stoning much more than ever, socialising hasnt really been anything i've done of late.
my studies are deproving and motivation is lacking.
my enthuse has slacken and im just really stoned.sighh.
somewhat, i am really excited to leave secondary school and see what jc is really like/
start anew prbably.dont really know;
Perhaps i've thought too much,but im burning darker than fudge.Can't take this pain no more,it's making me feel forlorn.pretending to stare at the floor,i cant wait to shut the doorcant see myself more alone.please, just let me go be a stone.How quickly that time has flewand i really do still have no clue,i'd rather be banished out there in the cold-i'll just live on cornflakes and grow old.All lies, they buzz like flies.sarcasm a bitch in my eyes,reality's tight teethering slap to my face;silence and solitude, im going insane.surrender so slow, this sole sulking soul.so blinded by life, for what? to die?bury this mellow and calloused deep sighs,i'll find my utopia ,6 feet underground.another jgs lost.
feels wrong.feels sad.
but i didnt cry. i didnt feel like we deserved it even if we won anyways.
it brought more disappointment then anything else.
as shrill silence reigns.black pitless skies.far cries beyond,unknown, un-found."may our living be thanksgiving, remembering your name now and always..."
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