Saturday, March 25, 2006
today was pretty much an eventful day.
went aunty shopping with al and took neoprints.
(:
and whilst shopping;
well it came to the idea of whether we were ready to leave secondary school life.
where we wanna go.
and how our lives are basically gonna change.
be reminded that this is all whilst we're happily walking around causeway.
in and out of places like john little and metro.
and getting hellos from old man.
haha.
then we went to watch the quarter finals debate.
cat. high against nanyang.
the match of the yr in my opinion.
and well something i gotta be honest i was disappointed with.
not going into too much details of my own persnal opinions on the match-up.
well;
watching the debates brought back loads of memories.
i guess the reality of my debating career being over hasnt exactly sunk in as of yet.
something still flickers within me that im still gonna have another chance to stand on the floor and feel the excitement and life of debating again.
but somehow such hope seems shortlived as i recall the possibilities of me ever going back into the circuit.
im somewhat hesitent to have to live through the politics of the debate circuit.
and somehow developed a fear of becoming a white elephant if i were to return to debates.
it feels redundant to not speak and yet be in debates.
pathetic for that matter.
and degrading to my soul and mentality.
as i watched the debate.
nodded to fantastic arguments and looked upon the people.
i feel attached; glued and stuck to the fact that something so precious in my lifestyle has retracted. feels oddly awkward.
yet thinking about it otherwise;
its a blessing in disguise- i have to start sitting down and studying.
dreaming big and doing nothing aint gonna get me anywhere.
to ahpa and al;
lets be the daft idiots to aim high for rj.
and if we should fall short.
let it be done. at least we know we tried.
debates is but a game.
its either we keep playing or turn off the remote.
in all; lets enjoy the rest of the debates.
sit back; not dwell.
but look ahead to the better aspects of what we have.
i dont think i can possibly love you guys more than i already do.
thanks.
time is but a trance.so fast it dances.so draining; it call.
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